Kuching, a once familiar city where i call hometown, is now a foreign land to me regardless of the accustomed places i've been through and grown up with. One of the main factors leading to my decision to stay in kuching was because of my parents. On the day i leave Moscow for good, my best friend's dad, passed away, i had whole trip time to ponder upon this matter, what if this incident happened on me? I wouldn't forgive myself for being so far away from them. so going back to Berlin became a dilemma for me. But God has always been leading my way. He let me met a guy, which is now my working partner, tho of cos he's much more senior than me. The main thing is that, i could see what i want from this work. i won't be earning a fortune that can afford all my dreams, but it’s good enough to survive, till i get to where i want. so, right now it’s about working hard for that one day.
Sometimes it's unbearable waiting for third parties(mostly the ones that sponsor the production) to give a definite answer, plans are delayed waiting for an official answer, or ever changing decisions. and waiting takes up my time, sometimes it bores me out with nothing to do, and not much friends around that i can share my feelings with. On the other hand, i should be thankful to finally find what i want to do for life, right beside my family. so, thank you God.
Meetin new people also let me realized that i’m rather a nitpicker In chinese we say, picking bones from an egg. Something i don't wanna admit that i am, but i know i am. am trying to change this attitude of mine.
Which reminds me of this 孩子不坏, children not naughty, movie. I was thrilled to hear friends telling me the movie being well done. finally got the time to watch it, sadly it was pretty disappointing for me, This kind of Jack Neo style story plot has always attracted me because it portrays the director's story and idea in a humor and sentimental way yet still, pretty realistic. Even new Malaysian directors, some of them, apply this kind of method in their featured films. What i believe is that, audience pay 10 bucks to have a good laugh and an enjoyable movie time with their friends or loved ones. and the director gets to convey their messages through this media. I do enjoy the message being tried to convey through the movie, for example (spoilers!) every single thing doesn’t have to be defined as good or evil, they always have two sides of stories, it’s a very debatable topic if discussed. By laws and regulations, a lot of incident cannot be settled by a justified manner. this was shared by a friend tho.
Anyway, somehow this story just have some element missing, i feel that being a 2 hour+ movie, they should plan the editing well. the story just doesn't flow. it’s more like telling bits and parts of comedy and sentimental plots by itself. Maybe they jammed too much ideas into a movie which makes it a mumbo jumbo combo, c-c-c--combo breaker! ok lame i know.
i feel like after being in the film production myself allows me to see into a movie more in its production way as well as its story flow. don't know whether it’s a good thing or not. People tell me why not you try to write down the critic yourself. so, giving it a try here. Plus learning to write out my feelings is something i need to do, cause when i need to write a screenplay, it requires ages practicing my expression through words. It’s already hard enough to sit my ass down to just write anything. so, this is a start.
My friends around the world, if you read this,just to let you know i’m missing you guys. Being young is an advantage, so take that opportunity to prepare ourselves for the future. I hope you are fine.
